Never thought I would be back in the states under these circumstances!

***Previously written Post***
A month ago, an earthquake hit Haiti...Hard. Being that I am severely and sadly addicted to facebook, I was able to read an article and get updates about what had happened through there. From that moment, sleep and eating became less of priority in my life. After 3 days of no contact with my dad nor any other family members in Haiti. My family and I thought it was best for me to return home. I can not be thankful enough to the Peace Corps staff in Namibia and in Washington DC for being so caring and understanding. In less then 24 hours that my sister called Washington DC, my flight was already booked to the states.

These three days with no news from my family seemed as some of the longest and hardest days in my life. Praying, hoping and thinking became things i was doing all day. Last time I prayed this hard, I felt that they werent going anywhere but this time I feel blessed and am very thankful that my father and family was alive and well. However the horrible news of close friends and news of my beloved country were too much to bare. I really could not beleive it and still can not. When I am able to fall asleep, the first thing that come to my mind when i wake up is that and everyday i hope that it is just a nightmare. But sadly it is the truth and it is a reality that has hit us hard.

Never thought I would be back in the states under these circumstances. Where now my reality is that I need to act and not just talk and write. Where now, I have to make big decisions as an adult. Decisions that are hard to make. Decisions that does not just involved me or does not have to do with just what "I" want to do. For my Peace Corps friends and family that is reading this...fear not this inst goodbye, I will be back.

I am really just taking it one day at a time and no matter what I am going to Haiti. I am staying hopeful. So although it seems that Haiti's physical state is in ruins, there is Hope. Hope for a better tomorrow, hope that one day we will rise and stand amongst the strongest. Hope that our brothers and sisters will be able to have a decent life with a proper education and adequate lifestyle. The light at the end of the tunnel may seem far, or the road to sucess may also seem long and far but we must not loose hope. So I encourage you wherever you are today as your are reading, to act. Even if you are not Haitian, there is so much that you as an individual can do.

I remember reading other volunteer blogs and sometimes I came across volunteers that I had to go home for some reason or the other, and today after making my decision, I am one them. However, although I am just staying for now, I will go back.



***I so wish that this long blog was enlightening you more about the beautiful Oshiwambo culture and the beauties of Namibia but sadly it inst but one day though...it will be ALL Namibia :)....I actually wrote this post about 1 month ago....and since then, i did get an opportunity to go to Haiti. This will def be a post on its own as I am still putting my thoughts and feelings together sigh...

Life is not easy, nobody ever said it would be but dang life...give me a break...just a little break...sometimes.

PS...future Peace Corps Namibia...please do not hesitate to contact me with ANY questions about anything... peggydefay@gmail.com

I miss Namibia...I miss my village...I miss Oshikundu & Oshitima yum...!