...still waiting...patiently

...continued from last blog entry
Last time i promised that i was going to write about two experiences that showed me how my decision to join the Peace Corps was DEFINITELY the right one. As you all may know, I am Haitian and during spring break (March 2008), i had the priviled to travel to Haiti with my friend (tammie), her cousins and her church group. At first, I did not know what to expect since, I did not really know her cousins and dint really know exactly what we were going to do. All I knew is that we were going to go to an Orphanage. With that said... we arrived in Haiti on a saturday and were set to go to the orphanage (located in Leogane) on Monday. As we sat around with the group and talked about the activities planned for the week(which included everything from beading, playing sports, tie die, arts and crafts, cooking), I started to relax and just decided to enjoy and accept whatever came my way. Little did I know that this experience was going to be an AMAZING one. As we set on the road monday morning to Leogane, I started to feel at peace and a sort of excitementthat I never really feel in the States, and which I always get anyways since Haiti is and will always be my home. The first day at the orphanage was AMAZING and the rest of the week as even BETTER. The kids embraced us and opened up to us so much that some of us were already in awe of what was going on around us. The first day, the kids had prepared a little show to welcome us. This show consisted of music, singing and dancing which we all enjoyed very much. Through their songs, they were already thanking us for coming. For me and for the others as well, I felt so touched by what they were saying...for example one song said "we couldnt explain to you our struggles and what we have been through" and that alone touched us all because these kids looked SOO happy. They told us that we shouldnt look nor think about their struggles but look at their strenght and happiness as something that God has given to them to keep going. They reffered to each other as family and they were welcoming us into that special family of theirs. This alone for me was an eye opener. It helped me realize that although that there are some things in my life that has happened that i dont understand or that i can not change, there are so many other things that i should be thankful for. These kids who age ranged from 1 year old to seveteen (on average) were teaching me something. They were teaching me to keep going on strong no matter what happens to you in life. There were telling us that you are not forgotten and even if you feel like you have nothing, then you need to open your eyes and realize that everything is going to be ok. This experience for me was yelling Peace Corps to me. Being in that orphanage was amazing. I felt like i fit in, I was comfortable, I was myself and I was giving hope to these kids by showing them my true self. I felt like this is where I belong and this is how I want to live my life. I want to dedicate my life to the service of others. (this story goes out to Tammie, Debs and Rach and of course the whole Haite Krew ARGH ARGH LOL)

.........well there inst to many updates about Peace Corps since my last post but somethings have been going on. I am currently in gainesville, FL and I FINALLY got a job HOORAY. After taking a month off to chill and hang out, i finally got a job at target. Its cool...its practically a no-brainer job which is what i wanted because i dint really want to do to much thinking this summer. Anyways besides that I have been patiently waiting for my assignement and my departure date from PC (peace corps). They told me that I should know in the next couple of weeks so im keeping my fingers crossed.

Besides work and waiting for PC...Ive just been hanging out with my friends doing absolutely nothing which i LOVE lol but ive also been trying to spend some time with myself which is very important in my opinion. I have to get myself ready mentally and emotionally for this big step in my life...I mean im leaving for 2 years and I may not see my fam or friends for 2 years. That is a little scary to be honest but its the type of fear that i feel that i NEED to face. So the time i spend alone helps me do a lot of soul searching and helps understand myself better.

As i posted last time, my addiction to facebook is dying but my blogging addication has become so much bigger. The other day i went to sleep at 4:30 am. I am so fascinated with the lives of current Peace Corps Volunteers abroad. I thoroughly enjoy reading their view and opinion before their time in their country and how they are dealing with issues after they are in their country. While reading these blogs, alot of emotions for me has risen. Not they werent already there, but it opened up my eyes more to how much other people have the same feelings as me. Its funny because i do not know these people and I will probalby never meet them but we have so many things in common.


Anywhoo...its 3:45 am and about to go catch a story on a blog before I hit the sack so until next time...Peace...LOVE...& HAPPINESS.